Many things happened during the last 2 months.
I am rather surprised that in such a short period, my life can turn its side over.
AND change tremendously.
I am not sure is it with positive or negative effect, I still can't see it right now.
But most of the time, I am still enjoying it, and I feel happier.
At least for NOW.
Not that I am SUPER happy. But yes, I feel another kind of Happiness. (Maybe)
On the other hand, Sadness does pours in some times.
And those dark times are really painful I wanted to just run away from the World,
and cry out loud for all the decisions I have made that hurt anyone and ME.
I Gain and I lose.
For all my loses, I cry and will get over it.
For all the gains, I try to make the best out of it.
I need to enjoy my life.
THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE.
I may hurt people on the way,
but similarly, I get hurt too.
Fair trade, you see.
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Just wanna share two Songs that best describe my feelings (FOR NOW)
Clarity - Zedd ft. Foxes
High dive into frozen waves where the past comes back to lifeFight fear for the selfish pain it was worth it every timeHold still right before we crash, ‘cause we both know how this endsA clock ticks till it breaks your glass and I drown in you again
Cause you are the piece of me, I wish I didn't needChasing relentlessly, still fight and I don’t know whyIf our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?
Walk on through a red parade, and refuse to make amendsIt cuts deep through our ground and makes us forget all common senseDon’t speak as I try to leave, ‘cause we both know what we chooseIf you pull, then I’ll push too deep and I’ll fall right back to you
Cause you are the piece of me, I wish I didn't needChasing relentlessly, still fight and I don’t know whyIf our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?
Tonight I'm getting over you - Carly Rae Jepsen
I wanna smash your fearsAnd get drunken off your tearsDon’t you share your smile withanyone else but meI wanna touch your heartI wanna crush it in my handsMake you plead and cryAs you give up all the lies
We’re not loversBut more than friendsPut a flame to every single word you ever saidNo more crying to get me throughI’ll keep dancing till the morningwith somebody newTonight I’m getting over youTonight I’m getting over youTonight I’m getting over youTonight I’m getting over you over you over you
Stuck in a real bad dreamAnd man it feels so new to meShould be in your arms but I’m beggin’ at your feetIt’s been a real hard nightAnd I just hold my pillow tightIt won’t love me backNo it’s not you and I
We’re not loversBut more than friendsPut a flame to every single word you ever saidNo more cryin’ (no more cryin’) to get me through(to get me through)I’ll keep dancin’ till the mornin’with somebody newTonight I’m getting over youTonight I’m getting over youTonight I’m getting over youTonight I’m getting over you over youover youTonight I’m getting over youTonight I’m getting over youTonight I’m getting over you over you
We’re not loversBut more than friendsPut a flame to every single word you ever saidNo more cryin’ to get me throughI’ll keep dancin’ till the mornin’with somebody newTonight I'm getting over you
