Oh well, oh well.
Firstly, it seems that I never/seldom share my problems with you. Ya?
It is because I do not have any problems. Else, why do I say 2011 was the best year I ever had?
Between me and Jianwei? Honestly, we do not have any conflicts, even if we do, it's so minor I will solve it in like 5 minutes.
Within my family? No one can solve it unless my dad/mum strike lottery 1 million dollars.
About studies? No problem, I am so optimistic even if my GPA drops I know my ability matters more.
With friends? I so little friends, how much problems would there be?
Secondly, Jiahui and me are two different person.
She is not me and I am not her. We are not representative of anyone of us.
What she said is not what I say.
She says she WILL NOT go.
But I preferred Eating. I never say NOOOO!
Thirdly, I don't mind staying home during New Year Eve. I really don't find it a problem.
But is like, finding out my best friend is out with another best friend with someone else.
And I have no shit idea of it? Was like, wth?
Me dunno a thing? Bo jio? Not first time liao worh...
Like the friend over me? Oh wow?
If I were to think it's perfectly normal, I am so abnormal.
You try to stand in my shoes, if I was out with Siman, without you.
You don't know a thing about it. I didn't even mention it infront of you.
Will you be so considerable to think that oh they definitely thought about me before.
They confirm think that I don't like these places, do not have the money/mood to go.
Or thinking that they sure thought I am going out with my boyfriend and couldn't spare time for them.
Oh well, it's okay...
If you really think a normal person would have these thoughts in their mind, the truth is, people think even deeper...
People says I am over-reacting. I can just take it easy...
But I ask myself, the fact is people are seeing things too lightly, or me taking it too seriously?
My answer is, I just wanna be true to myself.
The truth is
That's how I am feeling right now.
Sucky. About being left out.
You can just, tell me, you are going out on Countdown.
You don't have to not mention it at all.
As if I am a stubborn girl who will never understands.
Okok, I was told that I should not teach people what to do and what not to do.
Must control must control.
I just feel that, please don't make assumptions behind my back.
You can just ask. ASK!
Ask if JW is doing this with me?
Am I occupied on that day?
Do I wanna go? Can I go to that place?
I think that place is fun, do you wanna go?
Can you make it with us?
ASK!
Even if my answer is NO, at least I KNOW!
At least I know, you wanted me to do, you hoped that I could go!!!
Let me know, the first person you think of is people in SASA.
And also, to Siman.
If you like a/the person, JIO.
Don't maintain the relationship like it is just to not let it go.
I really think you should just go get it.
But if you don't want, I also can't do anything. Really.
P.S. Junyin, think again, I am not the person who least share my problems.
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