In a blueblue mood just few hours ago
The very first time to be mad and disappointed with a batch of guys
Never felt this way before in the past
A couple of the boys seem to be giving especially me cold shoulders
And making me in the process of wondering why
Am I that irritating or hard to get along??
Why they seem to dislike me so much
-Avoiding me
-Ignoring me
-Roll eyes at me and turn their backs on me
I'm not just mad with them
Totally felt like bursting out into tears
我不是要你们事事都为我为中心，
我只不过想要开开心心地和你们玩一场，
难得这也不行
To you guys:
Hope, trust, confidence
Now, they seem to have gone forever.
Sylvester(hint: tweety's friend) seemed to be like a total stranger and REFUSED to speak to me
That really dampened my mood when I'm already in a state of depression
Don't say sorry when you doesn't really mean it
Don't give promises when you can't even be sure to fulfill it
Because when you doesn't, my heart will breaks more and I will lost trust for you
I gave you many chances and you seemed to be taking them all for granted
I don't wanna fake my smile
when I just wanna cry
I don't wanna turn my head and go away
when I just wanna stay
I don't wanna say goodbye
but you made me do so
And now, I'm in pain
Someone once sent me a song
that I don't want to mention it here
But surely, you will know what the title is
You want me to ********** the things around me
But you yourself are not ************ them
The opposite of appreciate is unappreciate
The opposite of care is ignorance
The opposite of love is hurt
You are doing everything opposite of what I expect you would do
So now, rather hoping, I'm distrusting you.
If I would cry
the place will become a river of tears
If I could cry
my tears would have dry
It was drizzling just now and I suddenly feel like saying this:
Let the rain wash away all my sadness and pain,
leaving me with nothing but a better change.
I admitted many things made me upset today
but just now I saw someone that really lightened up my day
Yeppies.
I was so overwhelmed with joy the moment I saw him=DDD
I seemed to have forgotten all the unhappy encounters today and the only thing I saw was
sweetsweetsweet moments
He was once my crush
I haven't been seeing him for quite a long time
I even thought I totally forgot about this man
He looked into my eyes like he once did before
and I really miss the old days
when I always tried to peep at him at the corner of my eyes while purposely walking pass him
Get the fact right, we don't even know each other
But I still enjoy the moment we spent 'together'
Though that was just like less then a minute
But true enough, I still remember it clearly
He's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sute and he got that innocent-look that is what attracts me
I once mentioned him in my hi5 journal=]
that's all I think
He's back to work again
And I'm so relieved=]
Thanks GOD!!
God does bless me
he let me encounters the bitter of the truths
but also the sweetness in life
Junjun wore an extremely short 'hotbluepants' which she named it the tennis sportpants
she wore that specially for today as she thought she would be playing basketball like a pro
hahas=]
She's disappointed just like I am
But same as me, we are so used to it that we don't really feel a thing
=[
Hope she get to find her Ez-link soon
But factily, the possiblity of getting back it is going deep down to zero=[
sowie, Junjun
Going to Raffles Hotel tomorrow to watch a play that might and hopefully benefits my Literature mocking bird
Excited and nervous
high-class place for a middle-class people like me
oppsi.
More updates for this maybe tomorrow=]
Goodnites=]=]=]
